Perspectives and Introspection

2009-08-11T16:09:00.001-04:00

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This Blog Has A New Home

2009-06-13T12:10:00.001-04:00

I have decided to export this blog and two others to one WordPress blog. I'll keep this blog on Blogger and feed it into WordPress for the next month and then remove it from Blogger so please start to make this transition as soon as you feel ready.

Thanks so much for your interest and your continued support.

The new site: http://hayencompany.wordpress.com

My Company Web site is: http://www.hayencompany.com

My Company Blog is: http://hayencompany.blogspot.com

12seconds.tv - Retaggr

2009-04-29T01:06:00.000-04:00

Daily Tip #6 - Retaggr.com on 12seconds.tv

New - Utterli

2009-03-17T16:01:00.001-04:00

McCain 2.0: Senator on Twitter, with a new BlackBerry to boot

2009-02-26T05:38:00.000-05:00

Feb 25, 2009
From CNN Political Producer Peter Hamby
See full article by publisher: http://politicalticker.blogs.cnn.com/2009/02/25/mccain-20-senator-on-twitter-with-a-new-blackberry-to-boot/

WASHINGTON (CNN) — John McCain said during the presidential campaign that he "never felt the particular need to e-mail," but he has apparently developed an urge to Twitter.
McCain recently began sending tweets to the more than 88,000 Twitter users following him online, offering brief updates on floor votes, media appearances and his hometown Phoenix Suns.

"I use the BlackBerry, but I don't e-mail, I've never felt the particular need to e-mail," he told the paper.

– CNN's Dana Bash contributed to this report
Filed under: John McCain

IBM Grand Slam Widget

2009-01-29T01:35:00.001-05:00

HELP!!! I'm Under Attack! BUG OFF!!!!

2009-01-11T04:09:00.000-05:00

I am seriously declaring WAR right now on the LADYBUG masses that have taken up residence at my house.

It is ON! The LADYBUG INVASION must end!

Let me say that not only am I being driven to drink, but my cat looks like he might be considering hitting the bottle as well. Here's the thing... ladybugs are supposed to be good luck so if I drop a bomb on their entire family and nuke em' all, what's my karma??? Is this like a broken mirror deal....I'll have years of bad luck???

Ugg!!

Ladybugs don't bite; don't do much of anything. When they take flight, they're louder than mosquitoes. They all must be brain dead from constantly flying into my walls, doors, light bulbs, etc.

People, I have learned that where there is one ladybug, there are 5,000 more in tow!!! Don't doubt that. I have half the ladybug family tree swarming in my sun room and they are driving me and the cat insane. I can't kill enough, spray enough. I swear that I have sprayed so much bug spray that I have grown a wing and a possible new arm.....side effects of RAID!

Peeps, kind peeps... HELP ME! How do I get rid of them and how in the heck did they all break in?? How many more should I expect to show up for dinner??

NEW BLOG - The Opinion Cafe'

2009-01-07T22:18:00.000-05:00

Alright followers.....

For those of you who are my friends via one of my addiction channels, here's another way for you to feed your animal.

Talk to me, debate, share, what have you.

Review gadgets, gossip about new technology you've gotten wind of or seen on the streets.

Let's hear it!

http://theopinioncafe.blogspot.com/

Hey, even if you want to be a big nag, bring it!!

Oh, My Aching Back! Ouch!!

2009-01-07T20:25:00.000-05:00

Today, what a day. I haven't felt quite myself. I've been battling the crap going around and it finally took hold of me. I decided to go to the doctor today and what does he do??? HE MADE ME FEEL WORSE!!!

I am not kidding. My chest was hurting. I guess he was curious whether my current state is related to my car accident or not, but it wasn't. He made the very poor choice to rotate my arm and shoulder thereby giving me TWO friggin pinched nerves under my right shoulder blade.

It hurts so bad. I can't even explain the pain to give it justice. It feels like someone has taken a very large knife and stabbed me under my shoulder blade and is constantly trying to pry it up and out of my body. Just imagine the art of opening an oyster... that type of action. Then imagine after you've been stabbed, someone drizzling lemon juice in the fresh wound. YES, smarts!!!

If anyone has any remedies I can give a whirl, yell at me. So far, I have alternated hot and cold compresses, took a hot shower, took anti-inflammatory, stretched, tried to lay flat, etc. NOTHING is helping. OUCH!! I feel like such a baby. The next step for me is my chiro.

Snap! Crack! Pop!

Does Your Life Really Flash Before Your Eyes....

2009-01-04T03:06:00.000-05:00

This is NOT an image from my wreck.

So many have asked me about my accident and I know they have burning questions they feel might be too hard to ask me so I'm going to help you all out and answer some I'm thinking might be playing in your mind.

A couple of mos. ago I was involved in a multiple car collision. I will not go into specifics here, simply out of respect for others involved that might read this blog. Let me just state the fact though.... I was not at fault.

Yes, I still find it hard to say that, much less write it. Losing someone in an accident is a burden those involved in the crash will forever carry. Whether personal fault or not; it hurts either way, people.

Did the wreck itself hurt?

Ummmm.. YES!! It hurt both physically and emotionally. This tragic event will never be erased from memory, but that's okay. It makes me who I am. Hopefully, it will teach others to drive carefully and responsibly. If you don't drive with caution and care, may God have mercy on you. Physically, I felt intense pain in my back and left side. Throughout that day, my chest started to hurt more and more and then the coughing came about and then the loss of oxygen plagued me. Not fun times.

Watching someone fly through a windshield and collapse is emotionally tormenting.. It haunts me still and I don't think it will ever go away. I haven't shared these feelings or thoughts with one soul. This image is burned into my being and it wakes me up at night. To watch this event unfold and to be helpless and unable to rush and be of service to another human who is suffering is like watching someone hit your mother. It feels that bad. It's taxing to the mind and body.

What was it like to watch the accident happen (watch the wreck occur before your eyes)?

Good God alive, it is absolutely the most horrifying experience and the most silencing.

Let me explain. To watch an SUV come barreling at you out of the middle of nowhere and be powerless to stop it or get out of the way is so frightening. I could only compare it to those in The Twin Towers on 9-11 watching a big machine coming at them and having nowhere to run for safety. It's so scary.

It's also silencing in a way that you want to scream in fear, but you have no air in your lungs. You're paralyzed completely. No emotion, no commotion, no nothing. Not enough time to panic and not enough time to call for help or to call those you love and tell them you might not be speaking again so you will forever be with them and love them. No time to react. None of it.

Does your life flash before your eyes?

I think for every crash victim this answer might be answered differently. For me, NO!!! People, there is NO time for any flashes of any kind other than "Oh s*#t!" "NO!" "Stop!" "God, help me!" It is plain awful! I'd love to say there was an instant movie of my life that played before the day went dark for me, but there was no Clark Griswold Christmas movie footage playing, not even Cousin Eddie or Snots. Just a lot of darkness and fuzz (like when your cable goes out). This happened because I blacked out, not because I am a heathen, y'all.

I'd love to say that I thought of my girlfriend, my mother, brother, best friend or even my father who I lost years ago in an auto accident. But, they didn't enter my mind until I was scooped up by the fine EMS folks.

I thought about my girlfriend and how upset she'll be and then instantly thought of my mom and how my accident is going to pierce her soul in a way I'd never want. I thought about God and if I had honored him and made him proud the way he wanted. I thought about those things.... the 'What Ifs' and then the 'So What Ifs' and then the 'Why the hell am I thinking this way? I am not dying!'

So, I hope these things helped some of you. If you do have questions, don't ever be afraid to ask me. Remember, we learn from each other. We have nothing if we don't have communication!

Gadget Glory

2009-01-02T07:16:00.000-05:00

Tis my pain and my fuel, I swear....

I am totally addicted to gadgets of all kinds. Why do I have this long standing affliction? Is it learned behavior, a sickness befallen on me or is it weaved in my DNA?

Who knows???

You know, I have many addictions, but so did my dad. Some of his were called diseases. So, is my gadget mania a disease too? Yes, I crave the treats as an addict craves his/her vice or 'candy'. So, what's wrong with me? Can it be helped???

Here are my addictions and reasons for them:

1. Gadgets: I love how I can sit for hours and figure out how they work (maybe break the item, not bc I wanted to); like a puzzle.

2. Cars: I LOVE cars. So did my dad. I like to sit in the ride and figure out all the things that makes it so cool. What GADGETS are inside. I love how most look, sleak, stealth-like. Currently, Range Rover Sport, Infiniti FX, Ferrari, Porsche and Acura NSX are on my brain.

3. Phones: I am addicted to new phones. I love iphones but refuse to pay for something that has to be sent off to be fixed. I am not paying $600 for one either. Forget it. I loved the BlackBerry Storm, but typing was a pain in the behind. I like Sidekicks, but T-Mobile is basically non-existent in SC. http://www.blackberry.com/

4. Ipods: Currently, I have a Nano 3rd generation, but have eyeballed the iTouch for my girlfriend. Limbo. www.apple.com

5. Handheld Gaming Devices: I just bought my two favorite girls PSP 3000's and they love them. Pauwie had games for hers and handed her old unit to her brother, Paul. Hayen loves hers and loves me even more for the Shaun White games i added to the gift package. I am addicted to her unit. http://www.psp.com/

6. Datebooks, School Supplies: OMG, this is a true sickness. I love school supplies!!! Waaaah. There is a web site that I am constantly driven to: http://www.seejanework.com/
I love it. I love http://www.thecontainerstore.com/.

7. Online Shopping: I can find the BEST deals online. Currently, http://www.jcrew.com/, http://www.nordstrom.com/, http://www.neimanmarcus.com/, http://www.prada.com/, http://www.burberry.com/, http://www.gucci.com/, http://www.bloomingdales.com/, http://www.handhelditems.com/.

8. GPS Units: love them. I have a popup unit in my car, but a friend just got a Garmin Nuvi 250 and it's pretty cool. www.garmin.com

9. Yoville: I am addicted this http://www.facebook.com/ game. I met my girlfriend here and love this game. You can buy items and homes and so forth. It's like a neater SIMS. You must give it a whirl.

10. Women: Yep, i am addicted to women. So mysterious and so beautiful. Sensitive, yet strong. Amazing creatures. I am currently addicted to my gorgeous girlfriend, Pauwie. I can't talk to her enough. Can't get close enough. Can't figure out how to show her how much I love and adore her enough.

11. YES, I am a guy so you know the last item without me even saying it.

So, what are your drugs of choice? What fuels your fire? Let me know. I might need to add it to my growing list. Ha!

My Confucius is Confused...

2008-12-31T02:26:00.000-05:00

I love fortune cookies...even more than that, I love the words of wisdom found within.

Well, imagine my surprise when I cracked that golden confection and what tumbled out was this:
"You are going to have some new clothes."

Daily Numbers: 2, 4, 1
Lotto Six #'s: 26, 10, 32, 46, 1, 5

Needless to say, I was none too pleased to try my luck again, but I did. Here's the follow-up, so tread lightly:

"Don't worry about the stock market. Invest in family."
Numbers: 4, 16, 24, 34, 43, 49

Ummmm..... Confucius, I am sorry to have to open this sweet treat for you. It says,

"Your road in life has hit a dead end. Proceed to the next post in your life and leave this one behind."

For all you thrill-seekers and fortune-followers, here's a list of other fortunes bestowed upon me while consuming those delightful chicken lettuce wraps at my favorite place, Miyo's.

"Watch your relations with other people carefully, be reserved."
Daily Numbers: 1, 2, 2 (YES, I KNOW, it says "2" twice... sigh)

"A pleasant surprise is soon in store for you."
Numbers: 3, 8, 10, 19, 25, 28

"This year your highest priority will be your family."
Numbers: 9, 12, 24, 40, 46, 48

"Flowers would brighten the day of your close friend tomorrow."
Numbers: 1, 15, 17, 30, 37, 41

"Remember three months from this date. Good things are in store for you."
Numbers: 2, 6, 9, 14, 29, 47
"You will enjoy doing something different this coming weekend."
Numbers: 1, 2, 13, 21, 24, 25

Is Silence REALLY Golden??

2008-12-30T21:18:00.000-05:00

I've been curious about the statement, "Silence is golden."

Here's why:

When a person is silent, more times than not, that person is pondering something that likely involves you.

Silence might signify distain or discontent with the current situation.

Silence might mean someone is in pain, not just emotional, but physical pain and doesn't know how to reach out for help or feels weak asking for assistance.

Silence might mean a bomb of some type is about to fall upon you.

Silence might mean someone is bored or tired of your company (meaning, REMOVE YOURSELF!).

Silence might mean inner struggle or turmoil.

Silence can mean sickness though I hope that's not the case for you, my reader.

IN RETROSPECT.. yes, the attorney will give you the other side of the coin:

Silence may mean that the other person is so happy there's nothing more that needs to be said.

Silence might mean prayer (heathens, seek God here).

Silence might mean reflection (ahhh.. memories, la la la).

Silence might mean 'stars' or the act of relaxation.

And, my favorite, SILENCE might mean that a person is in FREEFALL. I'd hope the freefall is the freefall that occurs when you let go of the straps and fall into the arms of the person who loves you the most. Of course, you reciprocate those emotions.

HERE'S HOPING YOUR NEW YEAR IS FULL OF GOLDEN MOMENTS, BOTH SILENT AND OTHERWISE.